If you read Reed’s latest blog recapping our second month as full-time RVers, you know we have had some challenges mixed in with the rewards. My second month has been (happily) consumed with child-care by day, and rehearsal by night – but with a twist. Here is a bit of a different month 2 recap.
I have been sick now for an entire month (and counting) with an upper respiratory infection and head cold (now turned sinus infection). As someone who doesn’t get sick very often, and recovers quickly if I do, this illness has been incredibly frustrating and disheartening. And though I’ve been mostly functional, it has been hard on the family because I just don’t have the capability to do things with the kids that I would normally do, and it’s added to Reed’s load. Combine all that with opening a show in a principal role, and it’s been one heck of a ride.
This is all kind of a downer, right? But, I find something to be incredible amongst all this. A few days ago, it hit me very hard how much I have to be thankful for. You see, there is absolutely no earthly reason why, between the constant horrible coughing and the congestion, I should still be able to sing well enough to have performed through all the rehearsals and performances we’ve had thus far. My voice should have been completely wrecked, and yet, it isn’t. In fact, the performance day I felt the absolute worst and worried the most was the best performance yet. What?? That is proof that God provides and cares and what he has planned will not be derailed.
I Did a Thing
(As I wrote this post, I was actually on a plane headed to the complete other side of the country for a big audition.) I purposely kept it almost completely to myself (aside from family) because I didn’t want to make a big deal about it. The fact that the trip came together at all was blessing enough (thanks Mom and Dad!), but sitting here, I feel a strange and deep sense of peace and calm that is drowning out the anxiety and nerves (after all, I’m still sick and hoping desperately this huge trip doesn’t prove a huge waste!) While it’s very possible that absolutely nothing will come of this audition, I have hope that this experience serves a purpose…and that feeling of being on the edge of a precipice is as strong as ever….So…I say that, but I am also literally just praying some sort of decent sound comes out of my mouth!
Thank you to everyone who has been praying me through thus far. This past month may have been very difficult, physically and emotionally, but I cannot deny the blessing of seeing the power of prayer and of God’s will.
Stay tuned for an update on how the trip went in my next post!
P.S. My husband deserves a huge shout-out for shouldering so much of the load of late while also making sure I got rest, and doing what was necessary in order for me to be able to pursue a dream. You are amazing.